December Already ?!

It's 30th today.

Marking down the ending of November.

Time really does passing fast.

Nothing to say much though.

Let's just wait for December to come.

Try

"Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try"

P!nk - Try

#I really love this part of the song. Nice saying.

Hooray !

Hello blog-walkers ! ^^
I really can't tell how happy I am today.
So far I'd finished 6 suffering days of STPM.
I know it's still haven't over yet, the last is on 5th December.
But I can't contain the happiness flowing in me.
Yeah, after 6 1/2 years of facing History subject, finally it's over !!! =D
Seriously, after the few suffering nights trying to insert every history facts in my brain...
I really can die because of it...hahaha

I don't know why I didn't feel the same way for other subjects.
But for History, it's really a whole different story.
Eventhough I didn't study much during high school. keke~
For now in Form 6, I had put quite a lot of effort on it.
So is not strange that this subject had a significant mark to me.
Anyway its over by now !

Left one more day and I'll be officially finished my Form 6 studies.
Another chapter of my life ends. Another new one is about to reveal.
Unexpected journey ahead will be begin.
The grown up chapter. :)

Things Just Got Serious

Had my Microecons paper. The most stressing out paper so far !
It was not entirely the problem of the question.
What I had studied did came out on this paper though, so I guess it was okay ?
I don't know I just felt like I didn't give out my best on it.
Truthfully I didn't even manage to finished the entire paper.
I skipped a graph and scribbled a few points without explaining on a short essay.
After the paper was over, I could feel myself lost in action.
I couldn't describe how I felt that time.
Maybe I felt a bit disappointed on myself for having a bad time management ?
Well, I don't know.

Or maybe the teacher who in charge at my class ?
Seriously I wanted to kick his a**.
He just won't stop alerting us about how much time left for our papers.
"60 minit lagi." "30 minit lagi." "15 minit lagi." "30 saat lagi."

When he started counting at the last one hour, I started to panic, nervous all of a sudden.
I couldn't think clearly and started writing out random answers on my essays.
I didn't even know whether the answers relate to the questions or not.
No chances to look back at it.

Funny part ?
The teacher even counted how many seconds left.
I mean like seriously bro ??
Seconds ? Rea-ry ?

Happiness Is A Choice

Each one of us has 24 hours a day in our life.

Same amount of time. Not more not less.

Then why spending time thinking what would come tomorrow ?

Instead of using that time living on what's for today ?

We only have one life to live and what's said and done,

you will know.

_Just simply got inspired about these :)

Happiness is a choice, you decide.

Things Gone Wrong

I really don't know what had gone wrong last night.

I kinda wanna bang my head to the wall.

Those stress, tensions, frustrations were all building up in me.

Studies, exams, and yeah, family too !

I wanna admit that I was quite tiring.

Whenever they needed my help, I'll definitely help them with it.

But I don't know why, mostly my parents, they would show their disliking to me.

Hey seriously, you asked help from me and then you don't like it ???

What is the meaning of all these complaining thing ??

I'm sorry I really don't understand.

My dad kept on bothering me on helping him on his phone thing.

I need to help my sister on fixing something.

And, my mum looks emo last night. I don't know what had happen to her.

While in the midst of these things, I was trying to study but I can't.

Actually I was feeling okay but then I started to feel nervous all of a sudden.

The worse thing ? I can't calm myself down !

So I blog this out. No one to talk to. Forever alone. hahaha !

Don't come for me, Mr. Stress. Please let me go.

I didn't say I like you. Never !

In The Middle Of 1 AM

It's around 1:26 am.
And I'm still awake, not willingly to go to bed.
Do some memorizing work for my PP2.
I'm not acting like I'm hardworking, it's just I wanna be prepare a bit.
Feeling uncomfortable if I didn't get a book to read. tee-hee :D
And yeah, felt hungry too.
With all those food pictures scattering all over my Facebook news feed...
Its impossible not to feel hungry, even at this late hour.

So, nothing much had happen.
Been able to help a friend on her assignments.
Yeah, grammar checking and word corrections.
I admit it was quite tiring.
Checking 10 pages of words in 1 hour limit !
But it's okay. At least I eased her burden.

I did owe her a lot and until now I still feel so wrong.
This is the least I could make myself better.

Found this pic somewhere. Quite funny though :D

But seriously my dear Prince Charming,

when are you coming ?

Smell That Stress

So it's been a while since I last posted.

There's not much to talk about actually.

Since I'm in the middle of exam period, most of my time spent on books..books..

My life right now is really quite suffering.

But after all these over, I'm sure I'll party like crazy.

Stop thinking before you done exam. Be alert !

In these days, there were times I wanted to bang my head to the wall.

Or crying out loud.

Seriously, studying so much for only a few questions on the exam paper ?

What if it doesn't come out ?

That's what most frustrating to you, right ?

I felt that, peeps. :(

I can't even remember when I last slept early.

Now, my new sleeping hour, 2-3 am bro !

Constantly in need of eye drops for my eyes. I got dried eye problems.

And I didn't eating well too. My appetite mostly active in night.

Always had late night snacks, mostly chocolate cookies =P

Alright, enough for this light post.

Stay tuned.

Get It Right

What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can’t go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I’ll get through this

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!
Yeah, I’ll send out a wish, yeah, I’ll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take, to get it right?
To get it right?

:'(

What Worse Can I Get ?

The D-day right next door ?
Countless scattering notes to read ?
Pumping adrenaline all over my body ?
Nonsense negative thoughts running in my head ?
Laziness creeping underneath me ?
Appealing temptations luring around ?
Extreme gastric pain attacks ?
Heavy eyes and dizzy head ?

You name it, I might got it.

Emotionally Tired

When can all these suffering ends ?

All these worries, fears, tiredness, frustrations ?

Can anyone tell me when ?

I'd been struggling these days making sure I'm prepare.

Well, the hell days is drawing much nearer in the blink of an eye.

Always waking up fearing that I hadn't done much and feeling confused on what should I do.

All of these really exhaust me.

Every single time when I look at the clock, I asked,

"Can you hold on for a while?"

I know time won't wait but please can it be only this once ?

I don't know if I could endure all these stressing days.

7 days. 8 papers. 4 subjects. 1 brain.

Shit those numbers ! It's more like killing me than counting it for me.

And it's scaring the hell out of me !

Can I burst all these feeling out ?

I need someone to be here with me. Talk me out.

Maybe I'll feel better that way. Even if it's for a while.

I'm tired.

I hope. I wish. I pray.

Can't Even Sleep

Thursday. 4 more days to hell.

Having trouble sleeping last night.
Maybe I slept too much during the afternoon. Left me wide awake during the night.
So without wasting much time, I continued on my revisions.
Honestly, I started feeling quite nervous as the time drawing nearer each day.
Every day worrying whether I'm able to cover everything before the exam day comes.
I'm really afraid if I can't answer those paper.
But hopefully it wouldn't be that worse.

When I'm resting last night, I went online and saw a friend were also online.
After so long, she finally replied !
I had sms-ed, Whatsapp-ed her the past few days but she never even replied.
She had been looking for me one day.
Her messages really made me worried. It sounded very emotional.
It was most probably the tension she had on her studies.
But after the long chats we had, it was glad to hear that she's doing fine now.

Just hope everything goes well by now.
Finger-crossing.

Help Me ?

There's not much to post for these days.
Busy sticking my nose on the books.
And hell yeah...ticking down to 5 more days for STPM !!!
What I really feeling now ? Nervous.
I've been thinking lately that whether I could pull these through.
Been wasting a lot of time in the previous day and now it all come to this.
Surely nerve-wracking !
Am I well prepared ? It's coming anyway.
So, let's just get all these done.

Besides that, there are a few times I wanted to burst out tears.
Recently I just can't stand the tension in my home.
I don't know whats going wrong there.
One thing I know for sure, every single time when I was in the midst of studying hard for an exam...
They would started to make problems causing to me to lose focus.
And I would most probably going crazy on the inside.

And there's another two thing that had bothering me these days.
I really don't know what to do with it.
Having a real complications here.

What can I do ???
=(

No Regrets, Only Truth

Having another fun Friday night last night with friends.

Skipped study time though, well at least I'd studied during the afternoon. :)

As usual going out yumcha with friends, sure got games involving.

And it was the Truth or Dare? game.

Honestly, I found this game is fun to play with. 

At least it is much fun when you play with someone you truly close with.

Because playing the Truth part is quite dangerous. 

Some secrets are not suitable to open up. Seriously.

A lot of funny parts happening while playing.

But I won't post it up here. Hahaha...

What happens there, stays there. 

Well, that's the rules, peeps. 

But there's a question that I had during the game.

Among my friends, whom I most regret to get to know with ?

I answered it after thinking for a while. Yes, I did have one.

My answer might look shocking but that's the truth.

And I hope I won't regret answering it.

It was definitely something I hold inside for so long.

i'm sorry.

but that's the truth ½

My Careless Mistake

Ever felt before when you had a peaceful chat time but ended up arguing with each other ?

I don't know what I had done wrong seriously.

I only remember that I just kept on asking the same annoying questions again and again.

Is that what makes you mad ? Of me annoying ?

If it so then, I sincerely say I'm sorry.

I didn't know that what I've done is disturbing to you.

Have you ever give me a chance to explain why I behave like that ?

I did so is because I wanted you to think back why are so confusing with your matter.

I was trying to help you not to annoy you.

You said you don't know how to explain your problems to me.

But in the end, who makes you open up ?

I know you like to keep/hide things to yourself.

That's why I talk to you at the first place.

I saw your tweets, okay ?

Honestly, it sounded selfish.

You complained to me before that I didn't care about you.

Once I'm being there for you, you pushed me away.

Can you tell me what this means ?

It's been 24 hours of no speaking to each other.

New record, baby.

We never done this before.

Anyway, sorry okay ? Sincerely sorry.

mostly the end, i'm the one who do the talking first.....

All The Best

Study,study,study....st...tv, tv...t...twitter, twitter...
That's what I had done at home these days.
Bored to the max, man.
Everyday woke up doing the same routine over and over again.
Every night before I went to sleep, I told myself to be more concentrate on studying.
But things was different the other day.
I'm just too lazy to get moving.
But at least I managed to go through a few pages on the first 3 subjects I'm going to examine.

There's a few times I wanna skip studying.
But inside of me, I must feeling really bad.
Thinking too much on what would happen if I'm unable to answer my papers.
Tension, stress, frustrating, worried, scared !!!!!

I had this hope in me hoping I'm able to enter university one day.
I don't want to wish for more. Just wish that I could have a good results.
That's all I hoping for.

For my own good and for my families too.
I'll do the best I can.

War Is On

Today is the first day I started to touch my books after a few weeks had passed.

Purposely called my sis to wake me up early so that I got the urge to study.

Well, I need a push sometimes :)

Didn't slept well last night though.

Had a light reading to make me tired but ended up searching for my phone.

Headphones on. Musics on. Million thousand thoughts on. thinking quite a lot

..........ZzzZzzzz

Not much had happen these days.

Since it was a temporary holiday now, all we do at this time was just stick our nose to the books.

Hopefully I would concentrate more on studies instead of logging in on Twitter most of the time.

Blame the genius who created Wi-Fi !!!

You had quite ruined my life !!! XD

Counting down to 14 days till STPM.

It's just two more weeks and hell begins.

Game on b*tch !!! 

Last But Not Least

Me with Min Ket and Su Kai :)
(Photo courtesy of Soey)

Happy Birthday once again to that guy with white shirt ! Hahaha ~

Wishing all the best to you in everything !

Hope you have great birthday ya =D

Not Great

Having a great time last night with my buddies.

Celebrating two birthdays.

It was quite tiring on figuring the surprises without getting noticed.

Glad I had a not-so-bad acting abilities. Hahaha ~

Planning birthday surprises is not an easy task you know ?

About the cake. Really am sorry ! My bad...

Alright not talking this anymore....

Went back home around 3am something. My dad off all the lights again.

But never mind then. They knew I will be back home late.

I got a sense that both of my parents started not liking me going out late at night.

Since my days to STPM is drawing nearer perhaps.

My mum been nagging me to get studying now but I kept delaying it.

I heard my dad grumbling about me this morning when I was half awake.

And when I'm really awake, I found that I was alone at home.

I didn't even know where my sis had gone.

I thought she would leave me a note or a sms/call...but none does.

Freaking lonely man...plus the raining mood lagi tu...

Not having a good mood these days. And I don't know why.

Sunday just got awesome....

And There It Goes

2nd November 2012.

A date that marked down the last day of my school life.

Another chapter of my life has ended.

Another new story awaiting to be unfold.

I really can't imagine myself stepping out from school life.

It's been 15 1/2 years of schooling since kindergarten.

I'll be missing all those priceless moments I had throughout the period. Like. Forever.

:')

No more ringing school bells, no more school assembly,

no more school activities, no more canteen foods,

no more boring classes, no more stressing teachers,

no more chit-chatting, no more homeworks that i didn't do most of it :),

no more school uniforms, no more carrying school bags.

No more.

Hearing those last words that my class teacher gave today,

really gives me a sad feeling inside. Nearly cried.

I really wish that time could stop.

But all of us have to move on someday.

P/S : -

One of my best bud here, Min Ket !

Have a great birthday and hope you like that present...

All the best for you ! ^^

Dear November

Please be very good to me, okay?

Bless me with good lucks and help me strive the best for this month.

Not to forget to all my friends too...

Let's do the study hard for our STPM !!!

May God bless us in everything :)

Graduation, Prom & Party

Oh yeah...it's blogging time !

Last Tuesday was one of the best day I'd ever had.
It was my school convocation day and also our Pre-U prom night.
A lot of happenings and I couldn't agree much that it was terribly awesome.
And yes, I'd finally graduated Form 6 studies.

I look a bit like a mess here...><

With my best buds here !!! (Photo courtesy of Soey)

First time of my life wearing that robe. Felts great with it.
It was so university look-alike...hahaha
Never knew that I'm actually graduating and forwarding a step to university/work.
Time do really flies. Damn fast.

In the night, we had this prom night thing.
We did a class performances. And it was my first time singing on stage in front of a crowd !
I admit it I did felt nervous in the beginning but thank God, I nailed it.
There was a part of my verse where I was having a problem singing with it.
But luckily I able to sang it that night.
I do took a lot of pictures, of course :)

(Photo courtesy of Soey and Lee Chu)

Some of my best buds here ! ^^

During the dinner, I also met one of my best and funny friend of mine during Form 2.

I met Daniel yo ! He's a Malay guy and I had quite a fun times with him in high school.

It was so nostalgic when he showed up in front of me and asking me whether I still remember him.

Of course I do, hahaha ! It was awesome meeting again with old friends. 

After the dinner, of course there will be second round of fun !

I'd never felt so much exciting and fun in my entire life especially on that night.

Me and my crazy friends went to Best Brew (one of a chilling hangouts in my hometown) for a drink.

Instead of just getting a drink, most of the time we had fun dancing around.

Well, that's what happen when some random upbeat songs were on air !!!

Oppa Gangnam Style !!! Woohoo !!! ^o^

One of the singers there. The playful one :)
(Photo courtesy of Soey)

Even after the singing performances ended, we still dancing like crazy.

The funny part ? Anson found a tamborine on stage and then shook it while he dance.

I was like LOL !!! XD

Well the wild party ended somehow and went for another round of late night meal.

Talk a bit about the prom and stuff.

Something bad happened after that.

But luckily my friends were okay and nothing really bad happen.

Went back home quite late. Went to bed far more late.

Removed my makeup and washed my hair my makeup were far more ruined...ouchh ! shhh~

It took more than an hour. I was really tired and I forgot to take my self-pics :(

While I'm waiting for my hair to dry, I didn't realize that felt asleep at the living room.

My mum told me yesterday that I went to my room quite late. 

And it was around 4am something. I thought it was 3am ><

Another updates for my class feast later on.

Stay tuned ! ^^