Remember When

Yeehaw, it's been so long since I last posted.

Been busy chasing life since the mid last year.

So here's my updates.

Oh yeah, dear 2014, please be awesome too :)

Well, first of all I wanted to say that now I'm officially a university student in a local U.

Before deciding on furthering studies, I have been in a dilemma on whether to continue work or study.

Took me countless nights of insomnia and cries.

I admit it was a hard moment that time. Only God knows how tough.

But thanks for all the supports especially my mum for not giving up on me.

She let me continue my studies. (she disagree at the first place though...)

Stepping alone in a place away from home for studies is a big change in my life last year.

Thinking that many things need to be on my own.

But fortunately, I'm able to handle it well.

Met a lot of great friends from different places.

Having fun together, study together, get silly together, taking care of each other.

Roommate, housemates, coursemate, seniors.

Glad to have them and hope we will lasts till we graduate. (heard that uni friends will easily get lesser...)

Now reached the year 2014.

Nothing much to hope.

Just hope I do much better in studies and create much more happy memories.

:)

182 Days

Half year passed....say what?!?

Grumbling of work exhaustion, sticking my nose on my phone, Running Man's, chit-chats with my mum, hanging around & etc....

Doing things without realizing that today was 2nd July.

Time really does whizzing away fast....

 And yes, its been 182 days since.

All this time around is just about work, money and future plan.

Nothing much special really happening.

Except an unstable working atmosphere I had these days.

I admit it was quite exhausted working with lost of motivation.

Really tiring indeed.

If I really can't get over it, I might decided to give up and resign from work.

 But with a strong mindset I had, I can't.

Well seriousness aside then.

Doesn't want to bother anymore.

Just enjoy the ride and feel the freedom of doing everything I think of.

That's what I prefer to do :)

Guess that's the end of this post.

Long finger nails aren't helping now while hitting the keyboards....

I hate it !!! But mind my nails....I still want to keep it. *Ah-hah !*

Ciao~ :D 

 

Raging About The Injustice

I'm 20 this year. Young. Immature. Can't vote.

Seeing the condition of my country really does disappointing.

Heart wrecking too.

I know I'm still lack of knowledge about political issues.

But I know what is right and what is wrong.

I know what is fair and what is not.

I really just can't believe my eyes, my ears of what I saw or heard.

I am really disappointing. Really disappointing. Really disappointing.

I never meant to post these here.

But I just kinda wanna express my thoughts.

I do love my country but not like this.

Seeing my country turned like this is really saddening.

But.....give me 5 more years.

I'll vote for CHANGE.

 

 #INIKALILAH #UBAH 

#BLACKPARADE #SILENTMARCH

 "Through it all the rise and fall......

......we'll carry on"

Its May Already ??

Really so unpredictable that time does ticking fast.

Just a blink of an eye and we are hitting May already.

No more the same old sentence of 'please be good / be awesome'.

I'll just let it be and see how my days would turn out.

Well, my April turn out a tough one for me and I can say it was quite sucks.

Depression, stress, confusion.

Any more words that describe depression?

You can add up my list for it. :)

hahahaha...

I could see that I had abandoning my blog for a month or half before I finally update.

All my time is really fully occupied with work, movies, rest....

Did I mention that I'd seldom going out like I used to ?

Now I even rather stay at home !!!

I feel like I'm an old lady already.

Truthfully, I don't even have time for myself.

Always wanted to look for a companion to have some personal talks.

But well, all of my b*tches is either not at hometown, having exams, no chance to hang out....

....or lost?

Arghhhh...really dying of personal chit-chats !!!!

I'm dying inside really T.T

.............................................

Till next post then. I'm sleepy.

:)

Is It A Sign ?

When my mind in these days thinking of the word,

give up

.....something told me don't.

I feel tired and confused at the moment.

One more step I would be deciding on giving up.

But every time I wanna do so, there came songs containing lyrics of...

not giving up.

Wow, such coincidences?

Its not just once. Its......well, I lose count !

I want to walk a slower path of life.

I don't want to rush things at the moment.

Everything is just too fresh for me.

I need time to slowly see things clearly.

Shit just got complicated when you grow up.

Losing Focus

I don't know where to begin.
These few days I'm getting all kind of stress.
From work to my future plans.

I started to break down.
Crying silently from all those distress.
Wanted to give up. Losing hope.
Losing grip of standing strong for my life.
I could say that I'm lost. Confused.

I don't know what to do.
I don't know where my motivation goes.
I used to be so determined that nothing could pull me down.
I used to be strong that even a slight weakness might not be easy to break me.

But why?
Why everything goes the opposite way?
Why am I started to become so damn weak?
Why am I losing focus?

Am I the one that change?
Or the life now has other new plans?
And wanted to test me?

Did I fail? :'(

Yes or No ?

It's been a long time, huh?

I almost forgot about this blog.

In the middle of having my bath, baru I remember it.

Actually not much to update.

My job getting more task. No time to have a rest.

Basketball game with my colleagues. Yumcha.

Just normal days.

But of course in everyday, I would be always had this one problem kept interfering me.

In this growing up life I had, many life choices I need to make.

One of it was entering Uni or continuing working.

This question has always haunting me.

I don't know which path I should choose.

At the meantime, I had obstruction at both choices.

Please give me an answer.

I don't know where to go.

Of course, I always intended to choose studying.

By that way, I able to go somewhere out from my hometown.

Somewhere different.

But as always, every choices made come with its consequences. 

Study or no study?

Leave or no leave?

Its all depends on my STPM results and the Uni acceptance letter.