Losing Focus

I don't know where to begin.
These few days I'm getting all kind of stress.
From work to my future plans.

I started to break down.
Crying silently from all those distress.
Wanted to give up. Losing hope.
Losing grip of standing strong for my life.
I could say that I'm lost. Confused.

I don't know what to do.
I don't know where my motivation goes.
I used to be so determined that nothing could pull me down.
I used to be strong that even a slight weakness might not be easy to break me.

But why?
Why everything goes the opposite way?
Why am I started to become so damn weak?
Why am I losing focus?

Am I the one that change?
Or the life now has other new plans?
And wanted to test me?

Did I fail? :'(