Do Smile

It's been tough for me these few days. 

The aching feeling inside me is really killing me.

I really had no idea what to do with it.

I'd done crying it out. But it still aren't working.

All I do is just sitting there making anonymous random thoughts.

Just thinking what else more is coming its way.

My friends were right.

If I kept on hiding my feelings and won't talk about it, there'll be one day, I'll explode.

I always think I'm capable to handle it alone, for I know I just simply forgets unhappy things easily.

And, it was actually no big deal at all.

Well, that's was the old me. But not for now.

I'm someone who are not easily to talk my feelings out like that.

I felt insecure and worried at times if I do so.

I wanted to talk it out but sometimes people might not understand what I'm trying to lay out.

Plus, I'm not very good at expressing myself.

But I will do so if I get comfortable and ready to talk to.

Just no pushing, I don't work that way and I hate it.

And sometimes I choose not to talk is because there is no one listen.....

There is no one to give me a damn f*ck !!

I guess all I do is just smile to hide these dark side.

No explanation needed. Simple.

Feeling of getting drunk and escape reality for a while.

Get knockdown and everything will be okay. Done.