Goodbye 2012

So the New Year's Eve is already here then.

The end for year 2012.

"Sorry for the postponed post of my highlights this year.
I will be doing it some other day soon.
Just not this time around."

Just the same old words.
Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013 !
Happy New Year everyone !

Wishing all the best and have an awesome year ahead =)

100th Post

Yeah, and you're reading it now !

Can't believe I'd blogged till this number.

But anyway, congrats me for filling 100 posts =)

So, in this upcoming days ahead I hope I could still continue blogging.

I'm no longer a girl in school uniform but a girl with big dreams.

I would be heading to a much grown up life ... WORK !

Just hope I still be able to fill this bloggie with stories of my life.

You would want some more stories right ? :)

I'll try to keep it up.

Left 3 more days, year 2012 will be closing its curtain.

Truthfully, I'll be missing this year so damn much.

Too much memories held in it.

A total extraordinary year indeed for me !

=')

So to commemorate it I'll be posting some of the highlights of my 2012 soon.

Do stay tuned guys !

I'll guess I stop here for this post.

Happy 100th Post !

Nineteen

So here I go then.

The updates on my Nineteen day ! ^^

So I'd celebrated my big day the last 3 days.

But the night before 23rd, I'd already had a surprise from my buddies.

Instead of serving beers, the kakak came over me and handed me a gift.

I was quite confused that time and I can't absorb what was happening. LOL !

But it was obvious that my dear planned that :)

still want act there huh? haha~

So yeah, they got me this !

Thanks for it, I super duper like it ! ^^

And don't forget another small thing below there too.

Just simple messages and handwritten from someone who made this.

Hahahaha~ =D

So after the mini celebration, I was anticipating messages/calls from the closed ones.

But I'd none from them !

Wow, really such a blow up. Geez.

I really disappointed that moment.

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But the best part is yet to come.

On my exact big day, close friends/families do celebrated it with me.

Aunts,cousins and ma sister yo ! Thanks for the cake ! ^^

When my aunt asked me what I wanted for my birthday...

Well I asked for...

...instead of presents.

Nice !!! ^^

So after that, had dinner with my buddies.

And I really didn't had any suspicions on their actions.

They had surprises behind me !!!

With balloons filling the K-room sofas and the cake with the candles lit on the table !

Sudden 'Happy Birthday' song sung by them behind !

How I'm able to forget these memorable surprises with so much endless efforts ??

I can't THANK much to you guys ! =')

The most touching part ?

The messages in this lovely handmade birthday card.
Close friends and....ma sister too ! hahaha~
Secret wishes huh? ^^

~©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©© ~

Thanks for the fun night !!! ^^

Dear ! I can't thank you more on everything.
Gonna love you lots ! Will miss you so much  !

©©©

Another sweet memory framed in my life album...

Forever and ever ~

[Some photos are credited to Soey & Stephy. Thanks for the awesome shots :)]

Merry Christmas

Hohoho ~ Merry Christmas to all of my dearest !!!

And also to everyone :)

Even though this year's Christmas was awfully dull for me.

Not even a festive feeling occurs to me.

Staying at home most of the time but for sure I'm heading out tonight !

Sick of sticking my butt at home all the time.

Alright, that's all folks !

My big day updates coming up soon.

Keep reading. :) 

Abduction

Weee, finally I finished it.
Watched it last night with my sister.
She has been urging me to watch it.
She said, 'very nice to watch leh. Taylor leng zai ohh !'.
After watched it, I really agree.
Two thumbs up for it !

Lily Collins and Taylor Lautner.
Awww...love it !!!!

Gonna catch up another movie? oh damn yeahhh !

World End ?

21 December 2012. The day when the world ends.

But thank God.

I'm still here doing blogs.

We're still living and doing just fine ! ^^

Seeing that nothing bad happen today really a relief to us all.

I really wanted to shout out to those who believed that doomsday does exist.

ON YOUR FACE ! =D

So that means I'm still able to live 19 years of life.

In two more days !

Hahaha ~

I'm immortal.

A Couch Potato

It's blogging time !

Well, nothing much I'd done these days.

Just stuck at home doing some itsy-bitsy of housework.

Cleaning that, throwing those, arrange these.

Its good to keep myself busy with something to move around.

Or I'm going to be bored to hell !

Even dating a lot with Mr. TV seems a bit bored. hahahaha

But, dating with him today, finally made me able to finished 'What's Your Number?'.

I've been watching it repeatedly for 3-4 times but only the front part.

I can memorize the beginning script already. Duh !

Chris Evans seriously looks hot in here :P

There's a couple of times, some of my families had been asking me why I'm not with my friends hanging out.

Truthfully, I doesn't feel like going out these days.

Just wanna stay in bed all day !

I might not have this opportunity later anymore :(

So besides being a couch potato, I did do something to keep myself from rotting.

Currently reading this. Second attempt.
So far, its really GOOD !

Not failing on keeping me entertained.
A good companion :)

Alright I guess its all for now.

Will update soon.

xoxo

This Is Not What I Wanted

Had an argument with my mum just now.

It's been like the second time.

I didn't meant to get furious but I really can't stand it.

I've been holding on too much.

My mum kept on blaming me for being irresponsible on my matters.

But seriously when I need help from you guys, what excuses you guys been giving ?

Its not I don't want to settle it, its really inconvenient for me to do so.

Especially my dad ! 

I can't remember when he helped me.

When I'm growing up until now, I started to feel alienated from this family.

Like everything was different.

Things weren't the same before.

I feel much better living away from home.

No fuss.

I heard my mum's voice croaked when she talked.

I wonder she would be crying silently.

I'm feeling so wrong now.

Another night crying to sleep ? :'(

What I'd Done List

1. Woke up late every morning but not for these few days to clean up the house

2. Doing almost absolutely nothing at night besides watching TV and...oh yeah, played Word Search

3. Over-thinking a lot and ended up having my mood spoiled (worst thing I'd ever done)

4. Worrying about my life ahead (JOBS ~ !)

5. Watching movies and dramas like there's no tomorrow

6. Blasting my little ears at night before sleep ( Boys Like Girls, P!nk, Taylor Swift...yeah baby )

7. Facebook, Twitter and then back to Facebook again

8. Sharpening my Tetris Battle skills (yesss, i'm back on game !)

9. Being a counselor for a friend

10. I'm dateless. Forever Alone :P

11. Finished reading Beautiful Chaos [can't wait for the 4th installment :)] 

  

Better Off Alone

Welcome back peeps !

Been doing nothing but 'measuring floor' recently.

Or dating with Mr. TV and Mr. Computer most of the time.

Well, they showed me good movies, so why not date ? =D

Listening a lot of musics before went to sleep.

Having trouble sleeping these few nights.

If its not 12am or 1am, then I would be staring at my room ceiling like a dumba**.

I hate passing time during the night.

Wanted to stay up late but my so-called-clever dad turning off all the lights and the TV TOO !

Rushing us to get in bed early but all he wanted to do was to have a puff or two of cigarettes !

hey bro, cut the smoke already ! you think we didn't smell that in our room ? get your a** and smoke outside already !! 

Seriously I can't stand his attitude already.

There's one night I really damn frustrated.

Besides giving me his not-so-syok looks, he even changed the tv channels when both of my sis and me were still watching !

Come on man, is that funny ? F*cking childish behaviour !!!

I don't know what's his intentions of doing so but I really don't LIKE IT !!!

But after all those sleepless nights, I've been much calmer now.

Thanks to that one night where I'm alone all by myself.

Staring outside of the window towards the night sky.

No noises. No lights. No thoughts.

Just silences. Night sky. And me.

Best feeling ever. 

Tinie-Weenie Updates

Well, it's been days since I last posted.
Never touched the comps since I finished exams.
Had some plans going on those days.
So finally I had this time to update a bit here.

The past 3 days ago, been celebrating one of my besties birthday.
I can conclude it as a success surprises :)
Glad to hear that you like it, dear Soey !
Wish you all the best on your 20th, be GOOD in everything alright ^^
Oh ya thanks for the night in Four Points, it was nice staying there...haha

The girl at the right side, yes that's her...my cutest 'bulldog' =D
Have a great life ahead ! hahaha ~

After came back home, I'd been talking a lot with my sis again.
In the conversation, seriously for me is the most sincere one between us.
She totally read my mind and know what I feel.
Even though both of us doesn't had much life experiences, but at least we able to talk things out to each other.
When the moment she spoke everything that I held inside for so long, I cried.

It was just something that struck my feelings.
A person who understands me even when I didn't speak it out.
Someone who help me express everything and talk me out.
I've been hoping for this someone in my entire life.
Truthfully, it really touched me.
So its okay for me to cry a bit.

I've been telling a lot of times.
I'm just someone who doesn't express much.
I always pretend like nothing outside but deep inside I hold the deepest story.
If there's someone who capable to make me say everything out, then they're someone truly special to me.
Someone who I feel comfortable to be with, someone whom I trust.

Doesn't feel like talking these days.
Had a lot of thinking job.
Too much to be done for life next big step.

Stuck In the Middle

Someday things will be perfect.

It will be worth it all this time.

Stuck in the middle.

I know things will get better.

Hold it together, take your time.

Stuck in the middle.

- Boys Like Girls, Crazy World EP 

Uncertainly Down

Feeling depressed at a moment. Reason?

I really can't tell what's going on.

I just don't like the way I'm feeling now.

Maybe I had too much mix feelings in me.

And I didn't bring it all out.

I'm seriously torturing myself emotionally.

Always pretending that I'm okay.

But the truth is I felt depressing on the inside.

I just don't know how to express it out !!!

Know what?

Even the strongest man had the weakest heart.

Please dear me, stop hiding yourself or acting you're okay.

Aren't you tired of it for so long?

Is There Anyone ?

I've been wondering a bit last night.
So long I had met a numerous of people and even made them as friends.
But have you ever wonder who would willingly to stay with you till the end ?
When you're in trouble, would there be anyone willing to help you ?
Listen to your problems ? Sharing happiness ?

Talking to a friend on the previous two nights.
She was someone who appreciate friendship a LOT.
She told me these.

"When I needed help the most, you were there to help. Even if its seems little to you, it seems a lot for me. As we grew up, it is hard for us to look for these kind of friendship. And I'm appreciate to have you as my friend."

Seeing these, I'm glad I made someone happy.
Even if its something little but at least it meant something big for someone.
But I can't promise that I could be a better friend.
I'm just able to do what I'm able to. I'll try my best.

Appreciate friends around you.
You might not know which of them were the true and the best ones.
For sure, they come in small amount.
I might not have much but I'm glad I had a few.

I had wondered too.
If I'm on my lowest state, would there be anyone staying by my side ?

December

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way ~ =D

Be awesome !