Hardships

It's the second day of new year.

Nothing been much happier since new year eve.

Undergoing a very tough personal situation.

Been crying non-stop since then and I can't help it.

Having insomnia since then.

Always drifting myself apart at home.

Hiding in the room alone. Crying.

When can all these stops?

Did I done something terrible?

Why am I living with fear now?

Am I regretting on what I'd done?

Can I stop suffering?

How long should I stand it?

Can I run away and avoid these?

But on what had happen, I won't apologize.

This is what I felt for so long.

There's no way I'm taking back my words.

My truth.

Of what had happen, I know at least I got somebody to hold on to.

My mum and my sis. i'm sorry for the trouble i'd caused. please be with me.

My aunt. i'm sorry for letting you seen all these mess. thanks so much for the support and care.

My friends. thanks for being there for me. i'm sorry for giving so much trouble at the wrong timing. hope you guys had a nice new year day. i'm really sorry.

Anyway to all those that care for me, just give me some time to recover.

I know all these weren't your troubles but you guys still stay here with me.

I will not let you all worry about me.

But please in this moment, be there for me.

As long I'm not okay, at least I know where to turn to.

I promise I'll recover soon.

I don't ask much but just be here with me at the time being.

Last but not least, thank you.