Goodbye 2012

So the New Year's Eve is already here then.

The end for year 2012.

"Sorry for the postponed post of my highlights this year.
I will be doing it some other day soon.
Just not this time around."

Just the same old words.
Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013 !
Happy New Year everyone !

Wishing all the best and have an awesome year ahead =)

100th Post

Yeah, and you're reading it now !

Can't believe I'd blogged till this number.

But anyway, congrats me for filling 100 posts =)

So, in this upcoming days ahead I hope I could still continue blogging.

I'm no longer a girl in school uniform but a girl with big dreams.

I would be heading to a much grown up life ... WORK !

Just hope I still be able to fill this bloggie with stories of my life.

You would want some more stories right ? :)

I'll try to keep it up.

Left 3 more days, year 2012 will be closing its curtain.

Truthfully, I'll be missing this year so damn much.

Too much memories held in it.

A total extraordinary year indeed for me !

=')

So to commemorate it I'll be posting some of the highlights of my 2012 soon.

Do stay tuned guys !

I'll guess I stop here for this post.

Happy 100th Post !

Nineteen

So here I go then.

The updates on my Nineteen day ! ^^

So I'd celebrated my big day the last 3 days.

But the night before 23rd, I'd already had a surprise from my buddies.

Instead of serving beers, the kakak came over me and handed me a gift.

I was quite confused that time and I can't absorb what was happening. LOL !

But it was obvious that my dear planned that :)

still want act there huh? haha~

So yeah, they got me this !

Thanks for it, I super duper like it ! ^^

And don't forget another small thing below there too.

Just simple messages and handwritten from someone who made this.

Hahahaha~ =D

So after the mini celebration, I was anticipating messages/calls from the closed ones.

But I'd none from them !

Wow, really such a blow up. Geez.

I really disappointed that moment.

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.

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But the best part is yet to come.

On my exact big day, close friends/families do celebrated it with me.

Aunts,cousins and ma sister yo ! Thanks for the cake ! ^^

When my aunt asked me what I wanted for my birthday...

Well I asked for...

...instead of presents.

Nice !!! ^^

So after that, had dinner with my buddies.

And I really didn't had any suspicions on their actions.

They had surprises behind me !!!

With balloons filling the K-room sofas and the cake with the candles lit on the table !

Sudden 'Happy Birthday' song sung by them behind !

How I'm able to forget these memorable surprises with so much endless efforts ??

I can't THANK much to you guys ! =')

The most touching part ?

The messages in this lovely handmade birthday card.
Close friends and....ma sister too ! hahaha~
Secret wishes huh? ^^

~©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©©© ~

Thanks for the fun night !!! ^^

Dear ! I can't thank you more on everything.
Gonna love you lots ! Will miss you so much  !

©©©

Another sweet memory framed in my life album...

Forever and ever ~

[Some photos are credited to Soey & Stephy. Thanks for the awesome shots :)]

Merry Christmas

Hohoho ~ Merry Christmas to all of my dearest !!!

And also to everyone :)

Even though this year's Christmas was awfully dull for me.

Not even a festive feeling occurs to me.

Staying at home most of the time but for sure I'm heading out tonight !

Sick of sticking my butt at home all the time.

Alright, that's all folks !

My big day updates coming up soon.

Keep reading. :) 

Abduction

Weee, finally I finished it.
Watched it last night with my sister.
She has been urging me to watch it.
She said, 'very nice to watch leh. Taylor leng zai ohh !'.
After watched it, I really agree.
Two thumbs up for it !

Lily Collins and Taylor Lautner.
Awww...love it !!!!

Gonna catch up another movie? oh damn yeahhh !

World End ?

21 December 2012. The day when the world ends.

But thank God.

I'm still here doing blogs.

We're still living and doing just fine ! ^^

Seeing that nothing bad happen today really a relief to us all.

I really wanted to shout out to those who believed that doomsday does exist.

ON YOUR FACE ! =D

So that means I'm still able to live 19 years of life.

In two more days !

Hahaha ~

I'm immortal.

A Couch Potato

It's blogging time !

Well, nothing much I'd done these days.

Just stuck at home doing some itsy-bitsy of housework.

Cleaning that, throwing those, arrange these.

Its good to keep myself busy with something to move around.

Or I'm going to be bored to hell !

Even dating a lot with Mr. TV seems a bit bored. hahahaha

But, dating with him today, finally made me able to finished 'What's Your Number?'.

I've been watching it repeatedly for 3-4 times but only the front part.

I can memorize the beginning script already. Duh !

Chris Evans seriously looks hot in here :P

There's a couple of times, some of my families had been asking me why I'm not with my friends hanging out.

Truthfully, I doesn't feel like going out these days.

Just wanna stay in bed all day !

I might not have this opportunity later anymore :(

So besides being a couch potato, I did do something to keep myself from rotting.

Currently reading this. Second attempt.
So far, its really GOOD !

Not failing on keeping me entertained.
A good companion :)

Alright I guess its all for now.

Will update soon.

xoxo

This Is Not What I Wanted

Had an argument with my mum just now.

It's been like the second time.

I didn't meant to get furious but I really can't stand it.

I've been holding on too much.

My mum kept on blaming me for being irresponsible on my matters.

But seriously when I need help from you guys, what excuses you guys been giving ?

Its not I don't want to settle it, its really inconvenient for me to do so.

Especially my dad ! 

I can't remember when he helped me.

When I'm growing up until now, I started to feel alienated from this family.

Like everything was different.

Things weren't the same before.

I feel much better living away from home.

No fuss.

I heard my mum's voice croaked when she talked.

I wonder she would be crying silently.

I'm feeling so wrong now.

Another night crying to sleep ? :'(

What I'd Done List

1. Woke up late every morning but not for these few days to clean up the house

2. Doing almost absolutely nothing at night besides watching TV and...oh yeah, played Word Search

3. Over-thinking a lot and ended up having my mood spoiled (worst thing I'd ever done)

4. Worrying about my life ahead (JOBS ~ !)

5. Watching movies and dramas like there's no tomorrow

6. Blasting my little ears at night before sleep ( Boys Like Girls, P!nk, Taylor Swift...yeah baby )

7. Facebook, Twitter and then back to Facebook again

8. Sharpening my Tetris Battle skills (yesss, i'm back on game !)

9. Being a counselor for a friend

10. I'm dateless. Forever Alone :P

11. Finished reading Beautiful Chaos [can't wait for the 4th installment :)] 

  

Better Off Alone

Welcome back peeps !

Been doing nothing but 'measuring floor' recently.

Or dating with Mr. TV and Mr. Computer most of the time.

Well, they showed me good movies, so why not date ? =D

Listening a lot of musics before went to sleep.

Having trouble sleeping these few nights.

If its not 12am or 1am, then I would be staring at my room ceiling like a dumba**.

I hate passing time during the night.

Wanted to stay up late but my so-called-clever dad turning off all the lights and the TV TOO !

Rushing us to get in bed early but all he wanted to do was to have a puff or two of cigarettes !

hey bro, cut the smoke already ! you think we didn't smell that in our room ? get your a** and smoke outside already !! 

Seriously I can't stand his attitude already.

There's one night I really damn frustrated.

Besides giving me his not-so-syok looks, he even changed the tv channels when both of my sis and me were still watching !

Come on man, is that funny ? F*cking childish behaviour !!!

I don't know what's his intentions of doing so but I really don't LIKE IT !!!

But after all those sleepless nights, I've been much calmer now.

Thanks to that one night where I'm alone all by myself.

Staring outside of the window towards the night sky.

No noises. No lights. No thoughts.

Just silences. Night sky. And me.

Best feeling ever. 

Tinie-Weenie Updates

Well, it's been days since I last posted.
Never touched the comps since I finished exams.
Had some plans going on those days.
So finally I had this time to update a bit here.

The past 3 days ago, been celebrating one of my besties birthday.
I can conclude it as a success surprises :)
Glad to hear that you like it, dear Soey !
Wish you all the best on your 20th, be GOOD in everything alright ^^
Oh ya thanks for the night in Four Points, it was nice staying there...haha

The girl at the right side, yes that's her...my cutest 'bulldog' =D
Have a great life ahead ! hahaha ~

After came back home, I'd been talking a lot with my sis again.
In the conversation, seriously for me is the most sincere one between us.
She totally read my mind and know what I feel.
Even though both of us doesn't had much life experiences, but at least we able to talk things out to each other.
When the moment she spoke everything that I held inside for so long, I cried.

It was just something that struck my feelings.
A person who understands me even when I didn't speak it out.
Someone who help me express everything and talk me out.
I've been hoping for this someone in my entire life.
Truthfully, it really touched me.
So its okay for me to cry a bit.

I've been telling a lot of times.
I'm just someone who doesn't express much.
I always pretend like nothing outside but deep inside I hold the deepest story.
If there's someone who capable to make me say everything out, then they're someone truly special to me.
Someone who I feel comfortable to be with, someone whom I trust.

Doesn't feel like talking these days.
Had a lot of thinking job.
Too much to be done for life next big step.

Stuck In the Middle

Someday things will be perfect.

It will be worth it all this time.

Stuck in the middle.

I know things will get better.

Hold it together, take your time.

Stuck in the middle.

- Boys Like Girls, Crazy World EP 

Uncertainly Down

Feeling depressed at a moment. Reason?

I really can't tell what's going on.

I just don't like the way I'm feeling now.

Maybe I had too much mix feelings in me.

And I didn't bring it all out.

I'm seriously torturing myself emotionally.

Always pretending that I'm okay.

But the truth is I felt depressing on the inside.

I just don't know how to express it out !!!

Know what?

Even the strongest man had the weakest heart.

Please dear me, stop hiding yourself or acting you're okay.

Aren't you tired of it for so long?

Is There Anyone ?

I've been wondering a bit last night.
So long I had met a numerous of people and even made them as friends.
But have you ever wonder who would willingly to stay with you till the end ?
When you're in trouble, would there be anyone willing to help you ?
Listen to your problems ? Sharing happiness ?

Talking to a friend on the previous two nights.
She was someone who appreciate friendship a LOT.
She told me these.

"When I needed help the most, you were there to help. Even if its seems little to you, it seems a lot for me. As we grew up, it is hard for us to look for these kind of friendship. And I'm appreciate to have you as my friend."

Seeing these, I'm glad I made someone happy.
Even if its something little but at least it meant something big for someone.
But I can't promise that I could be a better friend.
I'm just able to do what I'm able to. I'll try my best.

Appreciate friends around you.
You might not know which of them were the true and the best ones.
For sure, they come in small amount.
I might not have much but I'm glad I had a few.

I had wondered too.
If I'm on my lowest state, would there be anyone staying by my side ?

December

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle all the way ~ =D

Be awesome !

December Already ?!

It's 30th today.

Marking down the ending of November.

Time really does passing fast.

Nothing to say much though.

Let's just wait for December to come.

Try

"Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try"

P!nk - Try

#I really love this part of the song. Nice saying.

Hooray !

Hello blog-walkers ! ^^
I really can't tell how happy I am today.
So far I'd finished 6 suffering days of STPM.
I know it's still haven't over yet, the last is on 5th December.
But I can't contain the happiness flowing in me.
Yeah, after 6 1/2 years of facing History subject, finally it's over !!! =D
Seriously, after the few suffering nights trying to insert every history facts in my brain...
I really can die because of it...hahaha

I don't know why I didn't feel the same way for other subjects.
But for History, it's really a whole different story.
Eventhough I didn't study much during high school. keke~
For now in Form 6, I had put quite a lot of effort on it.
So is not strange that this subject had a significant mark to me.
Anyway its over by now !

Left one more day and I'll be officially finished my Form 6 studies.
Another chapter of my life ends. Another new one is about to reveal.
Unexpected journey ahead will be begin.
The grown up chapter. :)

Things Just Got Serious

Had my Microecons paper. The most stressing out paper so far !
It was not entirely the problem of the question.
What I had studied did came out on this paper though, so I guess it was okay ?
I don't know I just felt like I didn't give out my best on it.
Truthfully I didn't even manage to finished the entire paper.
I skipped a graph and scribbled a few points without explaining on a short essay.
After the paper was over, I could feel myself lost in action.
I couldn't describe how I felt that time.
Maybe I felt a bit disappointed on myself for having a bad time management ?
Well, I don't know.

Or maybe the teacher who in charge at my class ?
Seriously I wanted to kick his a**.
He just won't stop alerting us about how much time left for our papers.
"60 minit lagi." "30 minit lagi." "15 minit lagi." "30 saat lagi."

When he started counting at the last one hour, I started to panic, nervous all of a sudden.
I couldn't think clearly and started writing out random answers on my essays.
I didn't even know whether the answers relate to the questions or not.
No chances to look back at it.

Funny part ?
The teacher even counted how many seconds left.
I mean like seriously bro ??
Seconds ? Rea-ry ?

Happiness Is A Choice

Each one of us has 24 hours a day in our life.

Same amount of time. Not more not less.

Then why spending time thinking what would come tomorrow ?

Instead of using that time living on what's for today ?

We only have one life to live and what's said and done,

you will know.

_Just simply got inspired about these :)

Happiness is a choice, you decide.

Things Gone Wrong

I really don't know what had gone wrong last night.

I kinda wanna bang my head to the wall.

Those stress, tensions, frustrations were all building up in me.

Studies, exams, and yeah, family too !

I wanna admit that I was quite tiring.

Whenever they needed my help, I'll definitely help them with it.

But I don't know why, mostly my parents, they would show their disliking to me.

Hey seriously, you asked help from me and then you don't like it ???

What is the meaning of all these complaining thing ??

I'm sorry I really don't understand.

My dad kept on bothering me on helping him on his phone thing.

I need to help my sister on fixing something.

And, my mum looks emo last night. I don't know what had happen to her.

While in the midst of these things, I was trying to study but I can't.

Actually I was feeling okay but then I started to feel nervous all of a sudden.

The worse thing ? I can't calm myself down !

So I blog this out. No one to talk to. Forever alone. hahaha !

Don't come for me, Mr. Stress. Please let me go.

I didn't say I like you. Never !

In The Middle Of 1 AM

It's around 1:26 am.
And I'm still awake, not willingly to go to bed.
Do some memorizing work for my PP2.
I'm not acting like I'm hardworking, it's just I wanna be prepare a bit.
Feeling uncomfortable if I didn't get a book to read. tee-hee :D
And yeah, felt hungry too.
With all those food pictures scattering all over my Facebook news feed...
Its impossible not to feel hungry, even at this late hour.

So, nothing much had happen.
Been able to help a friend on her assignments.
Yeah, grammar checking and word corrections.
I admit it was quite tiring.
Checking 10 pages of words in 1 hour limit !
But it's okay. At least I eased her burden.

I did owe her a lot and until now I still feel so wrong.
This is the least I could make myself better.

Found this pic somewhere. Quite funny though :D

But seriously my dear Prince Charming,

when are you coming ?

Smell That Stress

So it's been a while since I last posted.

There's not much to talk about actually.

Since I'm in the middle of exam period, most of my time spent on books..books..

My life right now is really quite suffering.

But after all these over, I'm sure I'll party like crazy.

Stop thinking before you done exam. Be alert !

In these days, there were times I wanted to bang my head to the wall.

Or crying out loud.

Seriously, studying so much for only a few questions on the exam paper ?

What if it doesn't come out ?

That's what most frustrating to you, right ?

I felt that, peeps. :(

I can't even remember when I last slept early.

Now, my new sleeping hour, 2-3 am bro !

Constantly in need of eye drops for my eyes. I got dried eye problems.

And I didn't eating well too. My appetite mostly active in night.

Always had late night snacks, mostly chocolate cookies =P

Alright, enough for this light post.

Stay tuned.

Get It Right

What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can’t go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I’ll get through this

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!
Yeah, I’ll send out a wish, yeah, I’ll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take, to get it right?
To get it right?

:'(

What Worse Can I Get ?

The D-day right next door ?
Countless scattering notes to read ?
Pumping adrenaline all over my body ?
Nonsense negative thoughts running in my head ?
Laziness creeping underneath me ?
Appealing temptations luring around ?
Extreme gastric pain attacks ?
Heavy eyes and dizzy head ?

You name it, I might got it.

Emotionally Tired

When can all these suffering ends ?

All these worries, fears, tiredness, frustrations ?

Can anyone tell me when ?

I'd been struggling these days making sure I'm prepare.

Well, the hell days is drawing much nearer in the blink of an eye.

Always waking up fearing that I hadn't done much and feeling confused on what should I do.

All of these really exhaust me.

Every single time when I look at the clock, I asked,

"Can you hold on for a while?"

I know time won't wait but please can it be only this once ?

I don't know if I could endure all these stressing days.

7 days. 8 papers. 4 subjects. 1 brain.

Shit those numbers ! It's more like killing me than counting it for me.

And it's scaring the hell out of me !

Can I burst all these feeling out ?

I need someone to be here with me. Talk me out.

Maybe I'll feel better that way. Even if it's for a while.

I'm tired.

I hope. I wish. I pray.

Can't Even Sleep

Thursday. 4 more days to hell.

Having trouble sleeping last night.
Maybe I slept too much during the afternoon. Left me wide awake during the night.
So without wasting much time, I continued on my revisions.
Honestly, I started feeling quite nervous as the time drawing nearer each day.
Every day worrying whether I'm able to cover everything before the exam day comes.
I'm really afraid if I can't answer those paper.
But hopefully it wouldn't be that worse.

When I'm resting last night, I went online and saw a friend were also online.
After so long, she finally replied !
I had sms-ed, Whatsapp-ed her the past few days but she never even replied.
She had been looking for me one day.
Her messages really made me worried. It sounded very emotional.
It was most probably the tension she had on her studies.
But after the long chats we had, it was glad to hear that she's doing fine now.

Just hope everything goes well by now.
Finger-crossing.

Help Me ?

There's not much to post for these days.
Busy sticking my nose on the books.
And hell yeah...ticking down to 5 more days for STPM !!!
What I really feeling now ? Nervous.
I've been thinking lately that whether I could pull these through.
Been wasting a lot of time in the previous day and now it all come to this.
Surely nerve-wracking !
Am I well prepared ? It's coming anyway.
So, let's just get all these done.

Besides that, there are a few times I wanted to burst out tears.
Recently I just can't stand the tension in my home.
I don't know whats going wrong there.
One thing I know for sure, every single time when I was in the midst of studying hard for an exam...
They would started to make problems causing to me to lose focus.
And I would most probably going crazy on the inside.

And there's another two thing that had bothering me these days.
I really don't know what to do with it.
Having a real complications here.

What can I do ???
=(

No Regrets, Only Truth

Having another fun Friday night last night with friends.

Skipped study time though, well at least I'd studied during the afternoon. :)

As usual going out yumcha with friends, sure got games involving.

And it was the Truth or Dare? game.

Honestly, I found this game is fun to play with. 

At least it is much fun when you play with someone you truly close with.

Because playing the Truth part is quite dangerous. 

Some secrets are not suitable to open up. Seriously.

A lot of funny parts happening while playing.

But I won't post it up here. Hahaha...

What happens there, stays there. 

Well, that's the rules, peeps. 

But there's a question that I had during the game.

Among my friends, whom I most regret to get to know with ?

I answered it after thinking for a while. Yes, I did have one.

My answer might look shocking but that's the truth.

And I hope I won't regret answering it.

It was definitely something I hold inside for so long.

i'm sorry.

but that's the truth ½

My Careless Mistake

Ever felt before when you had a peaceful chat time but ended up arguing with each other ?

I don't know what I had done wrong seriously.

I only remember that I just kept on asking the same annoying questions again and again.

Is that what makes you mad ? Of me annoying ?

If it so then, I sincerely say I'm sorry.

I didn't know that what I've done is disturbing to you.

Have you ever give me a chance to explain why I behave like that ?

I did so is because I wanted you to think back why are so confusing with your matter.

I was trying to help you not to annoy you.

You said you don't know how to explain your problems to me.

But in the end, who makes you open up ?

I know you like to keep/hide things to yourself.

That's why I talk to you at the first place.

I saw your tweets, okay ?

Honestly, it sounded selfish.

You complained to me before that I didn't care about you.

Once I'm being there for you, you pushed me away.

Can you tell me what this means ?

It's been 24 hours of no speaking to each other.

New record, baby.

We never done this before.

Anyway, sorry okay ? Sincerely sorry.

mostly the end, i'm the one who do the talking first.....

All The Best

Study,study,study....st...tv, tv...t...twitter, twitter...
That's what I had done at home these days.
Bored to the max, man.
Everyday woke up doing the same routine over and over again.
Every night before I went to sleep, I told myself to be more concentrate on studying.
But things was different the other day.
I'm just too lazy to get moving.
But at least I managed to go through a few pages on the first 3 subjects I'm going to examine.

There's a few times I wanna skip studying.
But inside of me, I must feeling really bad.
Thinking too much on what would happen if I'm unable to answer my papers.
Tension, stress, frustrating, worried, scared !!!!!

I had this hope in me hoping I'm able to enter university one day.
I don't want to wish for more. Just wish that I could have a good results.
That's all I hoping for.

For my own good and for my families too.
I'll do the best I can.

War Is On

Today is the first day I started to touch my books after a few weeks had passed.

Purposely called my sis to wake me up early so that I got the urge to study.

Well, I need a push sometimes :)

Didn't slept well last night though.

Had a light reading to make me tired but ended up searching for my phone.

Headphones on. Musics on. Million thousand thoughts on. thinking quite a lot

..........ZzzZzzzz

Not much had happen these days.

Since it was a temporary holiday now, all we do at this time was just stick our nose to the books.

Hopefully I would concentrate more on studies instead of logging in on Twitter most of the time.

Blame the genius who created Wi-Fi !!!

You had quite ruined my life !!! XD

Counting down to 14 days till STPM.

It's just two more weeks and hell begins.

Game on b*tch !!! 

Last But Not Least

Me with Min Ket and Su Kai :)
(Photo courtesy of Soey)

Happy Birthday once again to that guy with white shirt ! Hahaha ~

Wishing all the best to you in everything !

Hope you have great birthday ya =D

Not Great

Having a great time last night with my buddies.

Celebrating two birthdays.

It was quite tiring on figuring the surprises without getting noticed.

Glad I had a not-so-bad acting abilities. Hahaha ~

Planning birthday surprises is not an easy task you know ?

About the cake. Really am sorry ! My bad...

Alright not talking this anymore....

Went back home around 3am something. My dad off all the lights again.

But never mind then. They knew I will be back home late.

I got a sense that both of my parents started not liking me going out late at night.

Since my days to STPM is drawing nearer perhaps.

My mum been nagging me to get studying now but I kept delaying it.

I heard my dad grumbling about me this morning when I was half awake.

And when I'm really awake, I found that I was alone at home.

I didn't even know where my sis had gone.

I thought she would leave me a note or a sms/call...but none does.

Freaking lonely man...plus the raining mood lagi tu...

Not having a good mood these days. And I don't know why.

Sunday just got awesome....

And There It Goes

2nd November 2012.

A date that marked down the last day of my school life.

Another chapter of my life has ended.

Another new story awaiting to be unfold.

I really can't imagine myself stepping out from school life.

It's been 15 1/2 years of schooling since kindergarten.

I'll be missing all those priceless moments I had throughout the period. Like. Forever.

:')

No more ringing school bells, no more school assembly,

no more school activities, no more canteen foods,

no more boring classes, no more stressing teachers,

no more chit-chatting, no more homeworks that i didn't do most of it :),

no more school uniforms, no more carrying school bags.

No more.

Hearing those last words that my class teacher gave today,

really gives me a sad feeling inside. Nearly cried.

I really wish that time could stop.

But all of us have to move on someday.

P/S : -

One of my best bud here, Min Ket !

Have a great birthday and hope you like that present...

All the best for you ! ^^

Dear November

Please be very good to me, okay?

Bless me with good lucks and help me strive the best for this month.

Not to forget to all my friends too...

Let's do the study hard for our STPM !!!

May God bless us in everything :)

Graduation, Prom & Party

Oh yeah...it's blogging time !

Last Tuesday was one of the best day I'd ever had.
It was my school convocation day and also our Pre-U prom night.
A lot of happenings and I couldn't agree much that it was terribly awesome.
And yes, I'd finally graduated Form 6 studies.

I look a bit like a mess here...><

With my best buds here !!! (Photo courtesy of Soey)

First time of my life wearing that robe. Felts great with it.
It was so university look-alike...hahaha
Never knew that I'm actually graduating and forwarding a step to university/work.
Time do really flies. Damn fast.

In the night, we had this prom night thing.
We did a class performances. And it was my first time singing on stage in front of a crowd !
I admit it I did felt nervous in the beginning but thank God, I nailed it.
There was a part of my verse where I was having a problem singing with it.
But luckily I able to sang it that night.
I do took a lot of pictures, of course :)

(Photo courtesy of Soey and Lee Chu)

Some of my best buds here ! ^^

During the dinner, I also met one of my best and funny friend of mine during Form 2.

I met Daniel yo ! He's a Malay guy and I had quite a fun times with him in high school.

It was so nostalgic when he showed up in front of me and asking me whether I still remember him.

Of course I do, hahaha ! It was awesome meeting again with old friends. 

After the dinner, of course there will be second round of fun !

I'd never felt so much exciting and fun in my entire life especially on that night.

Me and my crazy friends went to Best Brew (one of a chilling hangouts in my hometown) for a drink.

Instead of just getting a drink, most of the time we had fun dancing around.

Well, that's what happen when some random upbeat songs were on air !!!

Oppa Gangnam Style !!! Woohoo !!! ^o^

One of the singers there. The playful one :)
(Photo courtesy of Soey)

Even after the singing performances ended, we still dancing like crazy.

The funny part ? Anson found a tamborine on stage and then shook it while he dance.

I was like LOL !!! XD

Well the wild party ended somehow and went for another round of late night meal.

Talk a bit about the prom and stuff.

Something bad happened after that.

But luckily my friends were okay and nothing really bad happen.

Went back home quite late. Went to bed far more late.

Removed my makeup and washed my hair my makeup were far more ruined...ouchh ! shhh~

It took more than an hour. I was really tired and I forgot to take my self-pics :(

While I'm waiting for my hair to dry, I didn't realize that felt asleep at the living room.

My mum told me yesterday that I went to my room quite late. 

And it was around 4am something. I thought it was 3am ><

Another updates for my class feast later on.

Stay tuned ! ^^

The Tomorrow

The last day of school has finally arrived.

I'm gonna attend my school Pre-U convocation and prom night tomorrow.

Even though I had this heavy-hearted feeling of not leaving this school but...

I'm really looking forward on tomorrow.

I hope all of us can make great memories.

Especially the prom night.

I had this exciting feeling and wanted to see hows the night goes.

There would be a lot to talk about..hehe

Hopefully after tomorrow, I would be able to focus on my study.

Left 21 days I guess till STPM.

Wish I would have a great time tomorrow.

For this kind of days wouldn't be repeated again.

So, let's enjoy it while it last.

My Nights

Having quite a few tiring nights.

I can't sleep well. Even though my eyes were heavy but I'm still wide awake.

If it's not 2 or 3 am, I wouldn't be asleep.

So I just drown myself to sleep with my headphones on.

I really can't sleep if no musics on, or else I would be doing some random thinking thing.

Last night was the best night I guess.

Watched 'Paranormal Activity 2' with my dad and my sis (forced her to watch with me..haha).

Unable to watch it till the end because my sis was scaring the hell out of her.

But it was nice for me because finally I'm able to watch it...even though I was closing my eyes almost the half of the movie. ^^

Yeah, been crying a bit before I'm asleep. My new sleep routine. :(

Hope tonight I'll sleep well. And also the other nights too.

A lot of things to do this week.

Good luck with it :)

Lie No More

I'm sorry if I lied to you, my dear.
I'm sorry I said that I'm okay when it's obviously that I'm not.
I know I always hiding myself away.
Sometimes I just don't know how to say it out.
I don't know how to make you understand.
So I just said that I'm okay.
Well at least you know I'm not on the inside.

I'll try open up to you one day.
I know I can't hide for long.
I promise I'll move on. I promise I'll let go. I promise.
I'll try my best.

Stay a while with me, k? ©

When I cries, it's not just over one thing.

It's built up from the anger and the emotions that I've been holding in for so long.

:'(

It Ends Tonight

Alright, every questions in my head has been answered.
This time with a more clearer answer.
It's really the time to say stop.
I'd already promised myself that no matter what the answer is I'll agree with it.
Even when it's not the answer I want. The bad answer.

I really don't know why I had the guts to ask a question that could really hurt myself.
All I think was since I'm trying to give up on him, why not try to get to know the real thing ?
Just trying to know why I had to stop having feelings towards him. I just wanna know why.
Finally, things is much clearer for me now.
I should've knew it from the beginning.
I knew what would it be but why I still keep putting feelings ?
For freaking 5 years !!!

5 years is not a small period of time.
I'd wasted my time waiting for something that are impossible to happen.
And maybe won't happen at all.

I felt so silly and stupid of myself.
For being so naive and so faithful for so long time.
How long can I really stop liking him ?
I really had enough. No more waiting anymore.

Lets end this tonight. :'(

I Miss Everything

It's almost the end of my school days.

And I'd that longing heart that still wishing it won't end.

But somehow time is ticking slowly second by second.

It's almost time to say goodbye. :(

Before all these ends, I wanna say that...

I'll miss the time I'd spent at my school...

I'll miss my friends...the best one or not...I'll miss you guys...

I'll never forget these...

For I craved everything in my life memory album.

:)

Graduating Form 6 next week. must take a lot of pictures !

Attending the final prom night. lets make a lot more memories here !

Gonna start gearing up for my final paper, the STPM.

Time really do ticking fast.

In the blink of an eye, 2012 is almost closing its curtains.

Turn On Rainy Mood

Anymore sounds that can beat the sound of pianos, guitars and violins ?

Try listen it during the raining night.

100% guaranteed, you'll melt. <3

Well, I listened to Yiruma's Kiss The Rain last night before I sleep.

I listened to it with the addition of Rainy Mood effect and it literally blew up my mind.

I can't sleep at that time, so I decided to put my earphones on.

And then I suddenly thought of his songs, then voila !

Looks emotional, huh? :)

I just simply suited with the current weather here in my place.

Yes, raining...simply love this weather.

It's relaxing~

 Kiss The Rain - Yiruma

Have a listen to it. It's really nice.

A River Flows In You - Yiruma

Here's another one of my favourite.

*SPOILER: Ignore this if you dislike listening to instrumental song*

That Killer Look

Saw that? Good looking or not?

That's Tanner Patrick there !

Omg, look at those eyes.

When I first discover him on Youtube, I'd totally fell in love with him....and his songs too, of course :)

And then when I logged in to my Facebook, the picture above appeared at the top of my news feed.

I don't know how many times I had seen it. I just can't get enough !! hahaha ><

One word.

Handsome.

Can I have him? ^^