It's Harder Than I Thought

For so long, I'd this little health problem.
I noticed about it but I didn't done anything.
I just thought that maybe it was just a temporary matter.
But I guess it was still affecting. And yeah, I do get worried a bit.

And then my parents nagged me of not going to get checkups.
Last time I said no is because I was having exams that period.
So I thought is not the best time for me to do it.
Last night, they told me go for it. Once again, I tried to avoid.

I was scared, okay?
I'd never been in this kind of situation before. It's not I don't care.
And yet my mum nagged me like I treated this stuff unseriously.
If I showed my worriness to her, 100% she will freak out again.
I don't want to see her worried look. I want her to know that I'm okay.
She can worry about me but please, not too over...
I felt much more scarier and nervous if she did that !!!

I know soon that one day I had to face all of these.
There's no way I can avoid it.
I'm able to avoid for the first time but not for the second or the rest.

I'd been in everyone's side when they're in need.

I advised them that nothing to be afraid of and just do what's right.

But why I didn't listen to what I'd said?